Hello everyone. If you read my mood from a few days ago, I said that I'm pretty much leaving but I'd rather call it a break. Now a small amount of you might be a bit confused since I not long just returned after a year long break. So I thought i'd break it down for you guys.

2018 I hit quiet a low point in my life you could say? My auntie died and few other problems started to occur. During being on the dsghq at that time, i found myself moving further away from the community. My health got so bad i developed an eating problem where I couldn't eat much. This stressed me out even more. So I decided to leave the dsghq to what i thought would be forever. During my year long break, I started to catch feelings for this girl.. lmao. But she ended up back stabbing me. R.i.p. I got even more stressed out to the point i just didn't really socialise..

Okay fast forward a few months to 2019. around June. So ever since June, ive been non-stop feeling down all the time and I will explain the reason now...
My mom started to date this guy who was all rich and stuff. He moved in with us and started to act like he owned the place. Now i've heard a lot of bad stories from him, from my dad who knew him. Now as the relationship between him and my mother progressed, things started to get rough, he would scream at my mom daily. She was never allowed to leave the house unless he said so. At the time I didn't do anything cause i guess you could say i was scared at the time. It got so bad that when my mum broke up with him, my mum said we'd be running away with my auntie and cousins for a few days. before we did "Run away" My mom was dropping me to school and she told me some bad news. My Gran was dying. Now, going through all this stuff then being told that your family member doesn't have long to live really hurts, it affects you mentally. This put me off for a while. So fast forward a few weeks.

My Gran was diagnosed with cancer and was taken to the hospital. I visited her once and.. honestly... it broke my heart seeing the condition she was in. she didn't look like my Granmother. And then... 2 weeks later, she passed away in her sleep.

If im being honest, i was very numb... very... I didn't cry. i was just numb. now this affected my mom heavily. i mean it was her mom but the other thing is. My mom Also got abused my her boyfriend. (They got backtogether for some stupid reason) And this is when i decided to grow up. We had the police come over to our house nearly everyday cause my mums ex was stalking us. And then one day he bust through the door "wanting to talk to my mom" Instead of just ignorinig whats happening. I shouted at him and kicked him out of the house. Ever since that happened. i havent been me. Im not that kid who made youtube videos for oldcp all the time even though that kid was gone ages ago. I had to grow up....

Now present day. My mom lied to me. she got back with him. And now im feeling left out. I havent had the right amount of sleep lately. im waiting on medication. But then something popped into my head. Whenever i was down I would come on the forums and oldcp and talked to people on here. it made me feel better. So I came back. And the amount of people shocked and glad to see me again really made my day. And I didnt want to leave this place again. But for some reason. I feel different now. I dont want to come on here anymore cause I wanna try and be a new person. I almost lost my nephew and that put me off of this platform. I feel like instead of focusing on this platform i should just focus on fixing the relationship between my family.






But since this is some sort of good bye. I want to thank you. for everything.

dear god, i love you a lot Harry you're hilarious.
I hope your situation gets better.

I love you so much my brother. I've known you for so long. Text me if you ever need anything. I'll always have your back in everything that you do.

I love you so much dude, stay strong.

I don't really know you but it seems like you are going through a lot and I sincerely apologize, I deal with similar family issues like yours so I understand how you feel. I you ever want to talk and get some advice I highly suggest you should talk to me on disc if you need help of any sort.

Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 12:59 PM:

Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

I dont own foundry?

Harryrhawk wrote on 18th December 2019, 01:03 PM:

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Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 12:59 PM:
Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

I dont own foundry?

Who owns it?

Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 01:04 PM:

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Harryrhawk wrote on 18th December 2019, 01:03 PM:
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Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 12:59 PM:
Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

I dont own foundry?
Who owns it?

Not sure

too long of a post

dont care

weend2014 wrote on 18th December 2019, 02:40 PM:

too long of a post
dont care

If you dont care, dont comment then.

harry, mate. i wouldve never seen this coming. youre doing bits mate, growing up so early sucks but we all have to do it at one point or another, so think of the situation as a blessing in disguise - because it's made you a better person. you're a man now, lad. you've seen stuff, you've endured stuff, but no matter how much it's knocked you down, you've got back up, dusted yourself off and said "hit me". you're an inspiration mate, everything you see is from the heart because you've really moved me, mostly because of how unexpected this is.

brother, we've had some amazing memories on oldcp and the dsghq. please keep in touch over discord, cos you're someone i can safely say i'd confide in whenever times are hard for me, too. spread this strength to everyone you know, and keep grinding bro. respect.

you legend. hope everything's blessed from now on