Hey guys, I want to make a serious discussion for once as this has taken quite some impact on me.

past couple of weeks have been hard lately. I hate talking about this publicly in front of a large amount of users but at this point I want people to understand why I may have been rude to people.

I've been going through some Family/Friend problems.

I'm not going into too much detail but it must be said before I go any further with this.

I've recently been feeling different, I'm not like I use to be. At the moment I've been forgetting stuff from the past thinking it wont ever return, But I was wrong until I witnessed something on saturday. On Saturday I was out with my Brothers (My brothers friend who i often refer to as a brother) and we were coming back and I saw my mother walking with an old Step Father of mine. Why did this effect me? I'll give you some backstory. This guy put a toll on my life, threatened my mother, abused her, abused my dogs. Made me and my family feel like crap. I couldn't see my nephews cause he only wanted my mother in the house. He would make my mother feel like crap by saying she had done stuff when she hasn't. Too the point I had to threaten him several times to get in the house, as I felt I wasn't being good enough. All my years of me not standing up for my mother I decided it was time. I kicked him out, My mum told me they had broken up blah blah, that was a lie (this was around november).

Then July came past and it turned out he left my mother and stole a bunch of things from the house. Anyways

Ever since then he was out of our life. My Mother was happy again, we were all enjoying seeing the rest of our family. Until I saw her walking with him. Ever since I saw that, all my mental problems kicked in, Im ill. I cant eat all the time. And now I have a Friend Who has messaged me about certain life problems. which may involve with me not seeing him anymore.

I can't keep going on oldcp with a grudge. People annoy me sometimes. Which is why, Once i lose KOD (during war) i will take a break from oldcp. For a few weeks to a few months.

I'm not sure when, but once I lose the title, Im off. Im gone for a break.

Oldcp has taken too much of my time, only because I enjoy it. but I have stuff to do irl and Problems I need to fix. And it needs to be done.

love you ellys, stay healthy and i hope you and your mother's situation gets better

AudreyGalx wrote on 24th September 2020, 06:33 AM:

love you ellys, stay healthy and i hope you and your mother's situation gets better

Thank you Door, Nice seeing you around