I would like to open up about some things...

Firstly, thank you for taking the time to read this. Secondly... Well, I'll get on with it now.

Earlier this year (early 2021), I was sent to a mental hospital because I was showing signs of being suicidal again. Now, I haven't shown signs of that for 4 years prior to being sent to the hospital. The reason I was feeling suicidal? A series of events that happened on Discord in 2020. What exactly happened? Well, it's still a bit of a touchy subject, but I'll spill it for the sake of opening up about my problems.

Essentially, I was being called a certain gardening tool by multiple people, the most notorious of which went by 'Sasuke.' The reason I was being called names? Through the MarriageBot on Discord, I was married to a Nagato account (while being Hanabi) in a server that goes by the name of "Obito & Rin's House." I was constantly harassed by Madara, who was Nagato's brother??? Like, umm... Nagato never did anything to stop him, so I did something I definitely regret... I divorced him, and married Minato (who apparently cheated on Kushina... Uhhh....) because he actually did something. It was soon after I did that the messages calling me a gardening tool came flooding in. It never ended. I was close to taking my own life because of some 13-14 year old kid who likes to chug mouthwash brainwashing 90% of the server into hating my guts. I was a moderator in that server, too.

Not only that, but even after I left that server, I received texts from Sasuke, Obito, and Nagato telling me to kill myself. Someone managed to get my phone number, and leaked it. I don't have the phone that has those texts anymore, but I can assure you, firsthand, that it did happen. Five months after my departure from the server, Sasuke tried texting me to apologize. His apology was a lie. Even in 2021, they still talk crap about me. Unfortunate. I really wanted to believe they moved on. On Wattpad even, someone (not naming names) tried to leak my home address. It failed though, I don't think Wattpad lets you post literal home addresses on peoples' Message Boards.

Anyways, ever since I got discharged from the mental hospital, my emotional standing has improved greatly. However, I was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder. That doesn't really matter right now, though.

That is all I wanted to open up about.

-Miko

Edit: To all the homophobes, go suck your mum's toes.

to be blunt you dont seem mentally stable enough for the internet, if discord drives you to that point you shouldnt use it. its also against the rules to talk about suicide as its not a light topic you can just throw around.

weend2014 wrote on 2nd November 2021, 05:11 PM:

to be blunt you dont seem mentally stable enough for the internet, if discord drives you to that point you shouldnt use it. its also against the rules to talk about suicide as its not a light topic you can just throw around.

It's honestly refreshing to see you showing some sort of concern for me, but let me just say, I've changed a lot since then. I'm not as sensitive as I used to be. My mental health is far better than it was back then.