Hi. So the last discussion i made, i went into detail on why I'm losing interest to this community. I guess when i made that discussion a lot of stuff was going through my mind. After that discussion I stopped talking to a few people. I stopped socialising in general to be honest. So i thought I'd give an update on the week long break I went on.

How i'm Feeling now
Well I'm feeling better mentally. Only a little. I feel more comfortable explaining these problems I'm going through.
I finally have sleeping pills to increase my tiredness which did me a massive favour.
But the only thing that hasn't really changed is my attitude. As a growing teenager you go through mood-swings. My most average mood is me being moody and silent. which i guess is why i was gone from the forums for a week or less. I just didn't wanna be mean cause in reality i'm a nice kid when i'm in a good mood. I've been spending most of my time with my mates. cause i had to get out of the house. and all we really did was play monopoly for 4 hours and order domino's pizza. it was swag non the less.

Family problems
Now there hasn't been much problems with the whole step dad thing and stuff. I spoke with my sister and brother about it and me and my mum haven't argued about it for some time and i mean its Christmas tomorrow so there's no need. Shes got me all these things for christmas so i need to be grateful. Im seeing my brother who i only see once a year on Friday so i'm looking forward to that as well..



Anyways there's not really that much else to talk about. But I do wanna say this. if any of you are feeling like i am. Stressed, depressed, anxious about anything add my discord and trust me. i can swear on everything I will talk to you about and it will stay between us. Im gonna be here for all of you so please let me know if you guys are feeling upset or down. Thank you all

Harryrhawk#9241 - Discord

yikes... mentioning watching your dog die (Even tho it was a joke) Brings me a lot of memories.

tbh actionscript looks interesting i'd like to see that

Damen wrote on 23rd December 2019, 03:29 PM:

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Harryrhawk wrote on 23rd December 2019, 03:25 PM:
im more of a scratch person. can you teach us that

Yes

Can't wait to watch you go on the scratch website and make Undertale Sans fight in scratch

im more of a scratch person. can you teach us that

weend2014 wrote on 18th December 2019, 02:40 PM:

too long of a post
dont care

If you dont care, dont comment then.

Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 01:04 PM:

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Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 12:59 PM:
Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

I dont own foundry?
Who owns it?

Not sure

Fortnite1 wrote on 18th December 2019, 12:59 PM:

Can you give me foundrycp then?
i am very sorry what i did that affected you and your familly

I dont own foundry?

Hello everyone. If you read my mood from a few days ago, I said that I'm pretty much leaving but I'd rather call it a break. Now a small amount of you might be a bit confused since I not long just returned after a year long break. So I thought i'd break it down for you guys.

2018 I hit quiet a low point in my life you could say? My auntie died and few other problems started to occur. During being on the dsghq at that time, i found myself moving further away from the community. My health got so bad i developed an eating problem where I couldn't eat much. This stressed me out even more. So I decided to leave the dsghq to what i thought would be forever. During my year long break, I started to catch feelings for this girl.. lmao. But she ended up back stabbing me. R.i.p. I got even more stressed out to the point i just didn't really socialise..

Okay fast forward a few months to 2019. around June. So ever since June, ive been non-stop feeling down all the time and I will explain the reason now...
My mom started to date this guy who was all rich and stuff. He moved in with us and started to act like he owned the place. Now i've heard a lot of bad stories from him, from my dad who knew him. Now as the relationship between him and my mother progressed, things started to get rough, he would scream at my mom daily. She was never allowed to leave the house unless he said so. At the time I didn't do anything cause i guess you could say i was scared at the time. It got so bad that when my mum broke up with him, my mum said we'd be running away with my auntie and cousins for a few days. before we did "Run away" My mom was dropping me to school and she told me some bad news. My Gran was dying. Now, going through all this stuff then being told that your family member doesn't have long to live really hurts, it affects you mentally. This put me off for a while. So fast forward a few weeks.

My Gran was diagnosed with cancer and was taken to the hospital. I visited her once and.. honestly... it broke my heart seeing the condition she was in. she didn't look like my Granmother. And then... 2 weeks later, she passed away in her sleep.

If im being honest, i was very numb... very... I didn't cry. i was just numb. now this affected my mom heavily. i mean it was her mom but the other thing is. My mom Also got abused my her boyfriend. (They got backtogether for some stupid reason) And this is when i decided to grow up. We had the police come over to our house nearly everyday cause my mums ex was stalking us. And then one day he bust through the door "wanting to talk to my mom" Instead of just ignorinig whats happening. I shouted at him and kicked him out of the house. Ever since that happened. i havent been me. Im not that kid who made youtube videos for oldcp all the time even though that kid was gone ages ago. I had to grow up....

Now present day. My mom lied to me. she got back with him. And now im feeling left out. I havent had the right amount of sleep lately. im waiting on medication. But then something popped into my head. Whenever i was down I would come on the forums and oldcp and talked to people on here. it made me feel better. So I came back. And the amount of people shocked and glad to see me again really made my day. And I didnt want to leave this place again. But for some reason. I feel different now. I dont want to come on here anymore cause I wanna try and be a new person. I almost lost my nephew and that put me off of this platform. I feel like instead of focusing on this platform i should just focus on fixing the relationship between my family.






But since this is some sort of good bye. I want to thank you. for everything.

You know i should most defo be on there

Damen wrote on 12th December 2019, 05:45 PM:

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weend2014 wrote on 12th December 2019, 05:32 PM:
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imdaboss wrote on 12th December 2019, 05:23 PM:
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Damen wrote on 12th December 2019, 05:19 PM:
This is not an official dsghq server and will probably completely go against all of the rules. So yeah, dont join it

you should make a dsghq discord server then
You probably weren't here when I announced that we won't use discord officially anymore, since its not made for 'kids' and don't give a toss about child safety. I mean, if you think oldcp is for kids, it is in all the ways that matter bar some cartoon violence
tru but wb the decapitated penguin heads on pikes or that time my penguins brains got splattered in front of everyone because i broke a rule
Some of the things I hear that go down on discord DM's is always worse than that

Cant be worst than tinychat

Hmmm

you're a man

Alatar wrote on 12th December 2019, 12:17 PM:

It is unbelievable how predictable one person can be.

Im starting to get some respect for you

yo frogs trust me dont date women. they make you happy for a few weeks then leave you for some guy named frogs lol