I want to apologize.
- I know that I'm not perfect and I know that I do make mistakes (quite a lot of them). I know there were/are situations that I put myself in that I handled poorly, or tried to ignore just to avoid the consequences. I'm aware I've made some poor decisions, and that I'm not entirely sure I can make up for the mean things I said or have done. But I am human; a very forgetful human (it's a curse..) and there are things that I’ve said/done to offend or hurt others that I’ve forgotten.
- So if I had done anything to hurt or offend you, please talk to me about it. I want to start over in this community, but I can’t do that without apologizing for every wrong thing I’ve done. So feel free to read the list or not, because it may or may not apply to you. I just feel like I have to do this.
From just being annoying to being a complete jerk, I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for being so naïve and desperate for people to talk to.
I’m sorry if all I’ve ever done was think about myself and not the people around me.
I’m sorry if you don’t think I like you.
I’m sorry if we drifted and you think it was because of you.
I’m sorry I wasn’t 100% honest.
I’m sorry if I lied to you just so you could stop talking because I was too much of a baby to tell you to stop.
I’m sorry for killing all those innocents in the past.
I’m sorry for using you to get what I wanted.
I’m sorry for getting my friends to verbally attack you because I was too chicken to do it alone.
I’m sorry for verbally attacking you.
I’m sorry for being upset with you for being friends with certain people.
I’m sorry for thinking that some people couldn’t change.
I’m sorry for being so petty.
The list is a lot longer but a lot more specific so I can’t share those.
Anyways, this might seem so out of context, but honestly, it isn’t. After yesterday, I realized that I did hurt some people and that I deserved what came at me.
(I wrote this last night, forgetting it was Damen's day the next day, so I’m sorry if it seems like I’m trying to make it about me, I’m just quick to share so I don’t forget.)